Saturday, August 17, 2013

SATURDAY POST: 8 * 17 * 2013

Today was one of the most important days in my daughter's life and I missed it! Does that make me a poor parent, a bad mother? I really hope not. I missed it because I had to go to work. I am the main income for my family. I take my responsibilities very seriously. I also want to be the best mom ever. It is challenging to do both. I requested the time off and it was denied. I did everything I could to try to be home for my daughter and I failed her. She will never tell me that, she may not even feel that way, but I do. I feel like I let her down and that is not the mom I want to be. I am so sorry I was not here for you today and I hope it never happens again. It is a promise I want to make to you, unfortunately I am not in a position to make that promise at this time. As long as I work for someone else and I am not the one calling the shots, I can only try. And try I will - that I can promise you.

I would like to know what causes people to want to ruin other people's lives? Denying vacation request time is a very powerful controlling move. You have just proved to me and others that you are in control, in power. You can move the pawns around at your will.

I am sure this is an age-old issue. I am not the first to experience it nor will I be the last. I want to think there are kinder, gentler bosses that would not do this. Hopefully those bosses are alive and well and treating their staff with respect. Someday I may even work in such an environment. For now, I do not. 

I want to apologize to my daughter for missing such an important day. You know I love you, I am proud of you and I will always be there for you in spirit. Even after I have left this physical world, I will be there for you. You are the best daughter anyone could ever have. I consider myself fortunate to have you in my life. Thank you for being you!

Good Luck and Godspeed on the most important day of your life. You will do amazing because you are amazing!